Saw him on a date…awkward!!!

I saw the cyber-flirt boy on a date this past Saturday. I figured he was dating other people, but it was so weird seeing him out with a girl…talking to her like he talks to me when we have lunch or dinner together.

I know that I hadn’t given him all of my heart. Part of it belonged to my firefighter. I wanted to like him, but there was just something holding me back.

The minute the firefighter asked me to be with him, I told myself, without a second thought, that I wasn’t going to communicate with the other guys I had dated anymore. Mr. Flirt included. 

I know that me and Mr. Flirt were just dating, that we never decided that it should be exclusive. It was just awkward more than anything. 

Me and my best friend Naomi were out shopping in San Antonio and decided to grab a bite to eat.

We walked in the restaurant, I saw him in my peripheral vision, and I panicked and rushed out of the restaurant. I don’t know why I panicked, but I seriously did. My hands were shaking and my heart was beating fast. I didn’t cry. I wasn’t sad. I just didn’t want him to see me, seeing him out with another girl. If that makes any sense…which it probably doesn’t. All I know is that I wanted to get the hell out of there before he saw me. 

He didn’t see me, thank goodness. 

I text him about 15 minutes minutes later, asking him what he was up to. I was curious to see what his response would be. Maye he was having lunch with a female friend.

But he lied…said he was working all day and would be out of work about 4 p.m. Not that he needs to explain himself to me, but he still lied. 

I thought, maybe it’s a friend. But after he lied, I figured she was more than a friend. Later we were walking toward a store in that area, and happened to see them leaving, shopping bags in tow. He was smiling and looking at her like he looks at me. It was weird. Maybe it was her birthday, and he takes all of his friends shopping on their birthdays. Who knows….

I didn’t tell him that I saw him. I’ve been avoiding him. I don’t know how to handle the situation. I guess the bottom line is I don’t care enough about him to make a big deal about it. But now I don’t feel gul